September 10, 2025

 This morning, as so often happens, I could feel the souls of the deceased passing through me on their journey. The metaphor is this: I was aware of being a tree in an immense forest of ghostly blue trees. These trees were mostly ‘asleep’ but I was aware of being luminous white-blue, a tree made of light. Inwardly, my ‘tree’ was like a crystal palace. I perceived the Woman in White’s presence and moved out to meet her, walking through moonlit field to a little hill that looked back on the forest. My ‘tree’ was shining and luminous among the other slumbering trees. 


Looking forward, I saw a sea of flowing dragons. They were luminous blue and white, undulating around each other. I was reminded of the wyrm that is supposedly devouring the tree of life in Norse mythology but these dragons were not sinister or dangerous or destructive.


“Correct,” the Woman in White said, reading my thoughts. “But they are ferocious when confronted by trespassers. They don’t attack you because you belong here. Come, let’s move among them.”


She led me down the hill, through the undulating dragons. I saw that they were more protectors than guardians because they served as a bulwark against the sea of blackness on the other side. I recognized the black sea as the Absolute. Above it was the radiant moon, a reminder of our current location in the so-called lunar realm.


The dragons were quite affectionate, caressing us with their bellies as they slid past. We forded the ‘dragon river’ and arrived at the shore of the Absolute. We stepped into the ‘water’ and I immediately felt like I was at home. It’s a deep and abiding feeling of both belonging and rest. The Woman in White was still with me. After dissolving into the blackness for a time, we saw a white light which was the light of the Crossroads. This was quickly followed by the vast, annihilating Whiteness that I’ve written about before here. I didn’t feel fear this time and I didn’t need to merge with the Woman in White to feel it. I could just let it happen and erase me. 


There was more, though.


The White gradually thinned into complete, crystal clear Nothingness.


This Nothingness was so basic, so pure, so clear that it was like pure, crystalline water. Utterly weightless, utterly empty, completely nothing. It felt like everything snapping into complete focus, like everything, everywhere, all at once was in focus. No distortion, nothing hidden, everything apparent, everything revealed. I don’t really have words to describe it but the overwhelming feeling was of being at home. I can’t say I was quite as comfortable in this clear Nothing as I was in the Absolute blackness but I didn’t feel like an interloper.


This experience of the Absolute nothingness was what the Woman in White wanted to show me. I guess it’s worth noting that there was erasure in each one of the ‘realms’ we visited but there was also the identity of the soul as inseparable from Being. When a soul is awakened to its nature as pure Being, Being continues to be Being even when everything dissolves.


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